i have found that it is very hard for me to be alone. and i get very bored and blah within a short amount of time. alex and i have been having problems because i can not explain why i need time to figure myself out. and today i found out what i need to work on, i need to be able to spend the day alone with me every once in a while and not go crazy. i need to be okay with being with me before i can really be with anyone else. though this may seem like something obvious, but i think it's easy to tell people that but hard to realize you are one of "those people".
i this is a positive step. and i am happy i figured it out on my walk, perhaps it will be some kind of an incentive to continue with my walks and my enlightenment. and maybe i can knock off some of this college weight, because damn did my ass explode this semester. I am huge, and i need to really fix this because i want to look at myself in the mirror one day and not be grossed out. i don't think it will be uber hard to lose like ten pounds with 2 mile walks and working, at work i have to fight for a lunch or dinner break. and even if i get one my mother has started making me a salad....the healthiest kind of salad she found on her newest dieting adventure. and i have cut out all soda it's just water and OJ really with the occasional diet ice tea. my goal is to lose 30 pounds but i know that is going to take a long time, so i am setting mini goals.

I've been thinking about trying to lose weight... but ice cream is just so good!
» Zanzibar on 2007-06-02 08:21:04

mm.. i'm glad you figured out what you need.. to... figure out. haha. i'll be as much help as possible.. by doing as we discussed last night. x3


» ThisCharmingMan on 2007-06-02 11:12:03

i'm glad you figured out what you need to work on*

that's a less confusing way to word it.
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» ThisCharmingMan on 2007-06-02 11:13:10

Good luck losing weight.. I'm on that myself.
» Nuttz on 2007-06-02 11:42:23

you know...i really miss you!! i have been enjoying my alone time like none other...i started rereading harry potter, i go online, and i do nothing and i love every moment of it...good luck!!

and i'm losing weight too...who knew college would be so...fattening. hehe.

see you soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
» jamsies22 on 2007-06-03 01:09:55

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