I am sitting here in my EMF class waiting for it to begin. I got here too early because my partner and I finished our meeting early and I just walked over because there was no point in going anywhere else. But on my way here I heard these two girls talking about their weekend and how amazing it was because of the parties they went to and I began to think…Have I missed out on some crucial part of my youth?
I was too uptight in my childhood and late teens to just let loose and experience college life?
I am 19 years old and I have never been to a party. Not so much because I don’t want to go to one, bust just because I do not hang around with people who party or know who parties. In essence I am too much of a dork to even know where a party is in order to go to one.
And I feel like I have missed out on some weird form of bonding that everyone goes through while in college. Like in 40 years people will be telling stories of their college days and I will not have single one to tell.
I sometimes feel like I am not living my life the way I want to. I want to have fun, and do things and have stories. This is why I want to travel so badly, I want to have something to say something to talk about.
It is now February and what am I thinking about? Not spring break in Cancun, not even spring break. I am thinking about jobs for the summer, should I get an office job? Work at a bank? These would be good resume builders. Or should I manage Rita’s this summer? It’s a good job, okay money, great bosses, a little far away, but I did it all last summer. Or should I look toward my future and think about getting an internship?? And if so, where? Kim mentioned that there are a lot of them in D.C.
I just sometimes feel like I have two people inside of me, one that wants to be an adult right now and do the grownup thing and get the internship so I am one step ahead of everything. And another and just wants to stay young and have as much fun as possible.
At this point in time I am leaning towards Rita’s or Internship….and I don’t know which will win out….
I wish I knew what to do.

good luck
i know exactly how you feel
» invisibleinkling on 2007-02-12 02:01:42

I don't go to parties 'cause its a low priority in my life. My friends tell me about the parties they go to and relay all the details and things they think are fun are things I find obnoxious.. Getting wasted and acting like a jackass isn't high up on my list of things to do.

I dunno, maybe its on yours? Do what makes you happy.
» Dilated on 2007-02-12 02:25:33

babe.. i'm here for whatever you decide.. do we not have enough fun together?! because parties aren't something you'll remember... and if alcohol and a wild atmosphere is the only way to make your life more fun, than we have a problem here!
grrr..
» ThisCharmingMan on 2007-02-12 02:44:15

haha
i don't really want to party. i am just curious as to what i am missing. but no way do i want the experiences like not remembering things or making a fool out of myself. i do dumb things on my own i wish i didn't do.
» GooseGirl on 2007-02-12 04:55:54

dont party. it's worth it when u want to and when u have the right people and the right experience. I didnt even touch alcohol until i was twenty and sure it's fun for certain reasons but just going to random parties isnt at all. It has to be a get together with YOUR friends. Yea, hold off and besides, it's not good for anyone... even though people act like it's not a drug or damaging. Even when I'm 21 I might drink twice a semester. This year I already hit that quota so since my 21st is coming up I might make an exception but still, I dont even feel like drinking anymore.... unless it';s with the right people. So if u do, be selective, dont settle for anything but the best experience.
» xXxshegzxXx on 2007-02-18 09:26:14

You can go to parties and have tons of fun without drinking.

People always assume it's the alcohol, but I think it's the atmosphere and being surrounded by friends. If I were you, I wouldn't worry about it too much. Do whatever makes you happy.
» Chloefoxx on 2007-02-21 06:44:03

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